about me.

last updated: 8/01/07

it was in that moment that he realized he’d been going about things all wrong.

i let people control me with their emotions and i fall in love too easily. i have a big heart that’s easily breakable but i can lie better than anyone you know. i lie so well that i fool myself. but i’m tired of lying and i’m tired of pretending everything is perfect when it’s not. i can act indifferent to your face then cry myself to sleep like a child just minutes later. emotionally unstable. i should probably be on some type of medication to get me through my days, but i like to pretend i’m stronger than that. and maybe i am.

i need the support of other people. i need to know someone’s listening. that someone cares. i need to have my hand held and i like to be hugged, chest to chest, hair knotted by fingers, fingernails digging, sobbing mess. i thrive on the love of others.

my lips and my arms are yours for the taking. closed mouth kisses for anyone, i’ll hug you so tight you can’t breathe. if i pat your back, you’re one of them, if i hold you close, fingerprints pressed into you, i love you. i love too easily. i trust too soon.

i keep my promises. i pay back favors. i use people, but they use me worse. at times i might root for you to fail just so i can put you back together when it tears you apart. i’m your biggest fan and your worst critic.

i believe in third, fourth, fifth chances. we’re all a little fucked up sometimes, we all make mistakes. and i’m probably so in love with you that it all just seems to make sense.